So I’m a bad witch. A terrible one, really. In the 5 months since Yule, I have done…. nothing - absolutely nothing - even remotely magical. Well, I planted some herbs, but I didn’t even do that right. I mean, sure, they’re growing… kinda… but it’s not like I did any spells over them, and I didn’t even plant them at the right phase of the moon. I don’t think. I’m so bad, I didn’t even record when I planted them. I don’t think. Maybe I did, but nowhere I see. So yeah. Bad me. No tarot. No runes. No ritual. No candles, no incense, no prayer, no… anything. My “altar” is covered in junk, my house isn’t clean, I never got the spring clean/house blessing bit done.

Gahhh! I’m awful.

So tomorrow night on the night of the last quarter moon, I’m gonna do some ritual. Lightweight ritual, mind you. And a little banishing magic on my debt situation. My debt’s getting better, but who couldn’t use a little help, ne? Oh yes, and maybe a financial-trouble-banishing add-on for my parents, who are heading for desperate times. I’ve never worked any waning moon magic before. In fact, the only magic I’ve ever worked has either been on the full moon, or on a major sabbat, so… Well, how hard can it be, ne?

And then I gotta kick-start my witchy studies. Truly. I need to do tarot. See where I stand these days. I’m feeling pretty good, but I’d like a little spiritual feedback, you know? Next Saturday, on the new moon, would probably be good for that. I think I even have that day/night off. Well, actually, I just checked, and I don’t. Whatever. Tarot doesn’t take long. *laugh*

I need to start pulling a card every day and taking notes. But that seems like so much /work/. You know, a whole two minutes a day of it. *gasp* Right. Can you tell I’m not only a bad witch, but a lazy one?

Note to self: Enough laziness!

Later today when I wake up, I’m gonna drag that A. person of mine up to start more herbs. And my carrots in a bucket. Yes. I’m growing carrots in a bucket. Hopefully.

Then Saturday, I wanna drag her to Havre as soon as she gets off work to, uh… shop. Yes. Shop. Not for much. I have a whopping total of $30 to my name, and $16 of that goes to cat food. So yeah, my shopping will be, uh, limited.

Another reason I need to do spellwork. Banish those poor finances, bring in something better!

I really want to buy this: Summer Magic Course. Oh yes, yes I do. But gugh… pricey for this broke dog.

The next two months are so short on finances I’m considering not putting any money into savings. Or at least cutting my savings contributions by half. I have nearly $500 in there, and no plans to spend it. Whereas, in June, I’ll only have a whopping $60ish to spend on misc stuff that isn’t allocated to specific bills or groceries. That’s not much, considering I have exactly 1 pair of shorts, 2-3 summery shirts, no face toner, moisturizer, q-tips, etc. and a shopping fetish.

Hoi.

I figure if I cut my savings contributions, I’ll be less likely to bust into the savings account to buy things I “need”. I guess it’s really the same thing, but I feel guiltier about taking money I’ve already set aside for savings. *lol*

Yeah. I need a bit more income, somehow. Hopefully, me and my magic will find some. We’ll see how it goes.

1 Comment »

1. Merry Meet,

   OH Dear Fellow Pagan,
   I’ve newly explored ur site & I must say PLZ pay close attention 2 the ideas u have in mind & open ur mind to them. i don’t mean this as harmfull words, because I do harm to no one. I merely am noticing mishaps in what u want to do verses what time u have for them. I strongly recomend that u focus not that of the present natural, but that of the supernatural. U must seek time as time is not trully real,but only a mirage of phisical reality.
   I am a new born again Pagan
   (X-Christian.
   Oh yeah BTW I’m a PK (preachers kid).
   So I understand what criticism u r hearing, except my parents do not know as of yet!

   I must go for now as this is my time for study & meditation

   Merry Part & Merry Meet Again

   Comment by Dolphinus — October 18, 2006 @ 7:46 pm

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